Archive for May, 2005

There’s nothing wrong with me.

Tuesday, May 31st, 2005

I’m going to cry of happiness right now. I just got an email from the Brooklyn College e-Grade system letting me know that my grade for Accounting 1 has been entered as a B.

… Breathing is something I’m not capable of doing right now.

I want to hug my professor.

Monochromatic.

Tuesday, May 31st, 2005

I went to see Madagascar yesterday with Marina. I actually didn’t pay for my ticket… although it only cost $1.50. (I guess I’ll give her the money when she gives me back my Empire Records DVD, which she’s had for the last year or so. I’m not trying to make her feel bad, I swear!)


Madagascar

It was an adorable movie — amusing, too. However, it’s not the type of movie you’d take children to see. There are many pop culture references that are only entertaining for the ones who know what’s being spoofed and mocked. (I think I belong in the former category: Marina had to point out several of these references to me. For example, I did not catch the Planet of the Apes connection.)

It was wonderfully animated and had an interesting plot — as well as a motley of characters. (I loved the penguins. I want me one!) The humor was mildy funny, as I did no more than just snicker. However, I’d probably buy the DVD

Marty the Zebra: The penguins are doin’ it, why can’t I?
Alex the Lion: The penguins are psychotic!

Eloquence belongs to the conqueror.

Monday, May 30th, 2005

Sad Statue

Conquest to the lover,
And your love to the fire,
Permanence unfolding in the absolute.

Forgiveness is
The ultimate sacrifice.
Eloquence belongs
To the conqueror.

The pictures of time and space are rearranged,
In this little piece of typical tragedy.

Justified Candy!
Brandy for the nerves,
Eloquence belongs,
To the conqueror.

You and me will all go down in history,
With a sad Statue of Liberty,
And a generation that didn’t agree.

You and me will all go down in history,
With a sad Statue of Liberty,
And a generation that didn’t agree.

I forgot to
I forgot to let you know that…

Justified Candy!
Brandy for the nerves,
Eloquence belongs
To the conqueror.

Conquest to the lover,
And your love to the fire,
Permanence unfolding in the absolute.

Forgiveness is
The ultimate sacrifice.
Eloquence belongs
To the conqueror.

You and me will all go down in history,
With a sad Statue of Liberty,
And a generation that didn’t agree.

You and me will all go down in history,
With a sad Statue of Liberty,
And a generation that didn’t agree.

Generation…

What is in us that turns a deaf ear to the cries of human suffering?!

WHOA!

Suffering, suffering now!

You and me will all go down in history,
With a sad Statue of Liberty,
And a generation that didn’t agree.

You and me will all go down in history,
With a sad Statue of Liberty,
And a generation that didn’t agree.

Generation…

Struggle is the price you pay.

Sunday, May 29th, 2005

School has finally ended… and not on a very good note. I feel as if I failed my Accounting 1 final. Why? Because I got cocky. On Wednesday morning (I came to school at 9 AM, giving me about 5 hours to study for my two finals), I spent more time studying for my Core 10 (Philosophy) class, thinking I had the Accounting test under control. Once I finally had a little time to study for the Accounting final, I realized that I was up the chocolate creek without a Popsicle stick. I took a sample final and only got 18% of the answers right. I wanted to cry right then and there… but I had no time to study any more: I had to run off to my Core 10 final. I finished by 5 PM and all I could think of was food. By the time I had eaten my sandwich (which was overflowing with tuna), it was 5:35 and I had to get to my Accounting 1 test site. I seriously considered not taking the test so I could take the make-up exam. However, after about 5 minutes of deliberation, I realized that this was as ready as I was going to get: if I had two years to prepare for this final, I still wouldn’t be prepared: I am far too lazy. I would have picked up the textbook for approximately 10 minutes before I got bored of it. So I went in.

…and I chose many of my answers by using the trusted “eenie, meenie, miney, mo” method. I am so screwed.

I emailed the professor two nights ago, asking him if there’s any way out for me. I told him the truth… so I hope he understands and gives me good advice. Otherwise, I am probably getting a C in my only 4-credit course this semester. However, he hasn’t replied yet and it’s making me nervous.

In the meantime, I’m looking for employment. I have already filled out the monstrous application for a Borders on Wall Street (there were 185 “strongly agree” or “strongly disagree” type inquiries about my personality… in addition to all the standard application questions)… and I just finished my Sam Goody application. While at FYE last weekend, I had asked an employee if they were hiring… and she told me, “Not right now,” and that I should come back in late July. Hmm.

Also, there’s a store called Coconuts that I need to visit to grab an application. I’ve never even been inside the establishment, I just want the yellow shirt that says COCONUTS on it! I would be so bad-ass…

I need monetary income. Someone hire me?

Coming attractions.

Sunday, May 22nd, 2005

Monday, May 23, 2005
1:00 - 3:00 PM Calculus I final exam
I will probably finish by 2 o’clock and will therefore have time to stop by my Classics professor’s office to pick up my paper. Hopefully, he did not think it sucked.

Wednesday, May 25, 2005
3:30 - 5:30 PM Core 10 (Philosophy) final exam
Must review the works of Jean-Paul Sartre (”Existentialism is a Humanism”), John Stuart Mill (”On Liberty”), and Karl Marx (”Estranged Labor”). It shouldn’t be too hard, though, so long as I actually study.

6:00 - 8:00 PM Accounting 1 final exam
This is the test that has me the most worried. However, my professor told me that if I can swing above an 85 on this exam, I’ll get an A in class. So, y’know… that may actually not be so hard.

Thursday. May 26, 2005
1:00 - 3:00 PM CIS 15 (Programming in C) final exam
To get an A in this class, I need to pull off a 93+ on this test. That would mean some extra studying. Ugh.

Why can’t this week be over already? I want to not worry about papers or exams or grades for three full months.

I want to sleep.